Ruin.

I’ve actually had a pretty good day. Finally getting to the bottom of my kitchen counter. Haven’t seen that since the day I moved in and plonked down the toolbox on it. Now it’s moved into the cupboard of good things to use whenever. Such as the vacuum, extra toilet paper, apron and candles. That freed up a lot of space, and now my kitchen looks positively empty. Well, yeah, a few things left to wash before I’m completely done, but it’s already empty, so I’ll leave it for tomorrow.

I had cake with my partner in crime, as a way of thanking her for the loan of the stool that I used for the last stretch of the wall mural. Not that I made the cake myself, it was the cake from work. Still yummy. And afterwards we went grocery shopping together. My breakfast would have been sad if I hadn’t. Like crackers and carrots sad. Because that was all I had left.

But the one thing I wish I hadn’t done today was watching a very short horror film. Under 3 minutes, and I know I’ll have trouble sleeping for the next couple of nights. I’m already feeling paranoid in my flat, and it’s a few hours left until I’m turning off the lights. Plenty of opportunity to kill myself as a alternative ending to be eaten by a monster.

It’s done.

I’ve done it. My wall is done. The endless hours of waiting for it to dry so that I could continue, the sketching, the painting, the refilling, it’s all over. This afternoon I took some time, and sat for two hours and painted the last bit. My arms are still hurting, but it was worth it. I’m so pleased with both the motif and how it seems to fit both my flat and my soul.

I’ll have many a nice breakfasts here.

Short day. Headache. Books. Wall mural.

I’ve had a mixed day, with mixed feelings, ups and downs. Can’t decide if it’s been a good or a bad day, but leaning against good, because after having a afternoon nap and bunching up on pills, against the almost a week-long headache now, I finally got some energy! And I spent that not on reading my book that I told myself I would read today. Not on answering any of the three letters I got from friends. Nor did I write those other 6 letters I decided last week to write to other people. But… I did finish the sketching on my wall. And to test my new paint and brushes, I sat there feeling all creative, and suddenly half an hour had gone and I had done a fair bit. So that was a yikes, what if the paint sucked?

So went away after slapping my own wrist. Watched some Top gear and drank some tea. But yeah.. my mind was elsewhere. It was at my wall. And as soon as the episode was over, I rushed to check on the paint, because it would need only one hour to dry ,and guess what, Top Gear episodes are an hour! So tenderly I started to rub away my sketch and the paint didn’t come off! Therefore I’ve just spent another 45 minutes on my wall. Getting three words done. Out of the two quotes. Dog, Don’t and Fuck. Because I started my test on Dog, if it failed it was at the part of the wall I could easily hide with a big flashy curtain. And then working on Fuck after Top Gear, because it was a comfortable size and comfortable height. And the Don’t just came along as well because it was just right next to Fuck and I was in the ZONE.  my gawd does it look pretty! But I think I’ll need two coats, because the paint isn’t as thick as I would’ve wanted it to be. I want it Black, and no wall-paint showing through, but I can’t paint that in one go, unless risking that it will get runny, and that would be a total disaster.

But yeah, now my arm hurts, and my butt. So will finally getting around to reading that book. It’s really great one, but my time is so unwisely spent on hanging out with friends. Gives me no time to actually read. Or spending writing here, snoozing around on different sites that offers stimuli, talking to friends who are way off in other cites. Or watching Top Gear, and cooking, not so much cleaning. I’m fond of my dust bunnies. Or trying to find smart solutions for my apartment that needs just a bit more love to be really comfortable.  The best thing is, I can read until I finish it, because tomorrow I don’t have to be at work until lunch. And that is pretty cool. Maybe I even will have the time to answer those letters, write on of the other 6, and paint some more on my wall :3